The beginning of my new ending

One of many to come i promise. lol. I was unsure as to where to start this, but the words I promise are burning into my brain. The very phrase I have used so many times. The same phrase that has gotten me burned and defeated time and again. Hahaha. What Irony. To promise you will do something is one thing. To promise an outcome where you are not in control of all variables is foolish. I often promise and outcome based on an assumption that the other variables I do not have control over will simply copmply and magically form their way into where they need to fit into my plan. Foolish. That is the only word to discribe an event such as that.
As many people do, I am starting this because of a promise I made that was broken by someone else. It's an interesting concept really when you think about it. waiting is mind numbing, however speculation is enough to drive you insane. Assumptions often do make an ass of u and me. lol. Cute phrase... until that phrase is not true. When you assume something and you are right it can either be a great feeling or an agonizing one. When you are correct in assuming something amazing will happen you feel like you are amazing yourself. However, when you are correct in assuming something terrible has happened it can cause a deep seeded hatred within yourself.
When you sit at home alone, trapped inside your own mind, wanting out because it is so painful, you just pray your imagination is completely wrong. You try to explain away the feelings you are having. You want to flea yet feel as though you are trapped at the bottom of a well and the only way out is to tunnel through and venture through the depths of hell itself. What a rush! I wish. When you find that your imagination is correct you are screwed. Work suffers, your wallet suffers with it. Family suffers and worst yet you suffer.
Anyway, as I said in the first sentence; this is the first post of many. I promised. I am in control of the variables involved in this promise. Stay tuned.........